Going Green

 i am inspired by nature

huggable (calvin and) hobbes

Writing this is entirely a therapeutic endavour. I think I need to clear things up in my mind a bit lest I continue my thinking-pacing which will surely annoy one of my fmily members soon (but this pc is technically mine though)

Honestly, I am not in the best ability to write coherent words nor verbalize the thoughts I have in mind. It has not been easy these days. I am not sure also, how this post will end up, or would it even be pointless?

Perhaps you can tell me.

There are moments, brief moments, of clarity where all the residues of life’s pettiness just disappears. The tide washes over the shore and nothing remains except clarity. The temptation to inhale the refreshed air is unbeatable. Subdued, you allow it to hit you- crips, clean, and with just a pinch of sugar for the added sweetness in it all.

And then, there is everything except these moments. Its volcanic ashes are a combination of wasted respect. failed trust, ghoulish envy, continued drama. The preservation of which amounts to relevant factors in wuality control.

But can they be surpassed? Must all situations amount to some twisted combination of these factors, choking the necks of those who dare engage their surroundings? Seemingly, yes. It must occur because it is a great way to teach us appreciation. It inspires gratitude in the one who forgets. And it is in our nature to forget.

Like the pearl hidden amongst a collection of barren oysters, there lies a precious gem, the rarity of true friendship. To have just one makes you among the privileged. To have two makes you among the eternally indebted. To have more than two is currently unimaginable. Such is the difference between a friend and an acquaintance.

So while we play the game of interaction, while we pretend to care, while we pretend to respect, and while we pretend to trust, we can only hope that the tide will come by, washing upon the shore the oyster that sings the song of truth and sincerity.

I want not to hold onto anything else that the ocean may lay on the wet sand before me. I want not to tread on the pebbles of disappointment. If the oyster of companionship never arrives, I’ll remain waiting; for my contentment is in the movement of the tides, and my happiness is in the breath of sweet air.

 A friend cannot be considered a friend until he is tested in three occasions:
in time of need, behind your back, and after your death.
- Ali bin Abu Talib [may God be pleased with him]

note:  I find this quote beneficial not because it can tell me who my ‘true’ friends are. I already have a good idea of who those are, though even still I can never rely on them entirely. There will be times when you stand, alone. I love and treasure them, but each relationship has its boundaries. I like this quotation because it tells me what I need to do as a good friend. Regardless of whether my friends remember me after I die, I now know that I cannot call myself their friend while they live yet forget them after they die. SubhanAllah. And to all friends out there (regardless of whom may never read this, I heart you. Yes all of you!) May God protect us all from being forgotten in the prayers of the living after our deaths, ameen.

On silence

Assalamualeikum wa Rahmatullahi wa Barakatuhu,

It’s been a while since I posted, and really it wasn’t intentional. I keep disappearing, I know. But, I have a good reason, trust me. But just in case anyone does still drop by here, I thought I’d at least keep up some bits and pieces. If I came to realize, it has been almost five months? MashaAllah! There are just things that are taking away the time and energy needed to sit down and actually form my thoughts into coherent sentences. But here I am now, Alhamdulillah.

So the time finally came to pass. A unexpected knock at my door one evening and a few moments later I was tearing through a box addressed to me, it could only mean one thing: change.

when the curtain of 2007 falls down..

knock! knock! peaceful greetings earthlings! 2007 is gone, 2008 is here. each year slips faster than the last it seems. maybe to harness the regins of time, i should write down the things i want to do better myself as a person. a man’s character is his fate (heraclitus).  on another note, i am finally updating this blog after the curtain of 2007 closes (sounds more like a new resolution lolz). i apologize to those who have been dropping by this path but to only find it was in serious critical coma (okay ibu dearest, i did get your point) but look..it’s recovering alhmadulillah! and thanks all for your lovely and wonderful messages and love and support, well yea i did not know that some people wanted me to update this home badly yar and so am wishing may this year brings you smiles, laughter, joy, strength in your values and struggle in life, wisdom to your minds, songs to your soul, happiness and lotsa lotsa love! may the dawning of the new year opens new horizons and may you achieve what you aspire..may Allah keep you under His care and supervision always and may you continue to sparkle through 2008 emitting faith, hope and charity for the ummah. okay, so i made mine too..like every other year hehe..for the very reasons it just lifts that spirit lively in you even more *smiles*

Resolutions #1

“today, i resolve to be appreciative of my relationship with my family and recognize that without them, i could not and would not be who i am today..enough for me is my home”

Resolution #2

“today, i resolve to *smile* and laugh more, and to try to be the reason for others to smile and laugh too. for smile is the simplest of all charities”

Resolution # 3

“today, i resolve to cherish even more this gift that Allah gives us every chance t get closer to Him. i resolve to show my gratefulness for the beauties He has given me till today by sonstantly reminding myself how i am just a humble servant for He is the almighty Lord”

Resolution # 4

“today, i resolve to do something for the betterment of the world everyday be it giving of my time, my money or simply an apple to someone hungry, or a prayer to God from the depths of my heart.”

Resolution # 5

“today, i resolve to nurture my mind every day. Nutrients gives to us, junks foods takes away. i resolve to watch more tv (coz i hardly catch a glimps) and read more and use more productive ways to spend my time..”

Resolution # 6

” today, i resolve to exercise regularly (i think its been on every year lolz). not for vanity but for the depletion or adrenaline and the way it strengthens my heart and regulates my pulse (erkk..am i growing that old already?)

Resolution # 7

” today, i resolve to write daily. well it may be blogging or working on my snippets or simply a note to myself in my journal before i sleep. i’ve been putting messages in the bottles “

hmmph, inshaallah. so what do you resolve?

it’s an openning of that new beginning..

“Allah is the Creator of everything. He is the guardian over everything. Unto Him belong the keys of the heavens and the earth.”
(39:62, 63)

munah’s weddingbells!

 

 

munah dearest..

Best Wishes on Your Marriage

Though time can change so many things,

May this one thing be true..

That time will never change the love Between the both of you,

and for the love of the Almighty

Happiness Always in Your New Life Together in the fairy tale of life..

as you cruise this endless path together

may this be your happily-ever-after fiddunia wal akhirah.

Mabruk Alaik!

 

big day: 17th november 2007 

*footnote: 

thanks for being my great buddy..my pal..my bestfriend..my dosst..my okayyy-lets-go everywhere-anywhere-wherever-at-any-time comrade! thanks for being the person you are..your presence..your companionship..your heart..only God knows how much i appreciate it, im very fortunate to have met you so. im wishing you life’s best & be happy always dear. May Allah grant you good in this life and the life to come. luv you always! 

 truly,

kaot.

gees..im gonna miss her lots i feel like crying now :’( 

FYI

two (2) very important people i’m missing right now..
1. Ayah

who left to the UK just after Eid for almost a week now.

i couldn’t tag along with him [sadly enough] and so i passed a note to him which says…

“ayah..don’t forget the FRUITGUMS.”

fruitgums?

yes 

haha.

2. Awiz

can’t really express this feeling but yup..wished he was home for Eid! wayfarers wasn’t quite complete. if he doesn’t come home next year..maybe i’ll go there to egypt instead.  it’s alwasy nice to dream isn’t it?  *wink*

3. [i think i only mentioned two yaarrr..]

Pardon me as I fall into a brief, shallow, coma.

brief

[+]

shallow

[+]

coma.

I am a bit rusty to this whole blogging thing, but I will most certainly try. I think what I’ve been wanting to do for a long time is to release all my inner demons, of which I have a lot, and this is not possible for me because of certain restrictions I have imposed on myself. If only life were so simple that I could let loose and be who I am with an ease and simplicity so great that I would never again feel inhibited and lost in my own skin. Life is changing quite rapidly, but isn’t it always? Sometimes the changes are a bit more alarming and highlighted than other times, which is what I am going through right now in my own life.

Okay, so I am going to *try* and update this thing a little more regularly. The problem is that I don’t have that much access to the net. wait a sec, please don’t even try to ask me why. besides, I don’t have much on my mind and my plate, but I have quite a troubling time attempting to express it. The words and thoughts used to flow, but now they are unfortunately stuck and never quite slip off the tip of my tongue as I would like them to. My time has been drowning in endless hours in work I suppose. However, the funny thing is that I still manage to conjure up countless thoughts and emotions within me.

Anyways, I am not a woman of many words. However, it will take a few days for me to regain my blog-ness and soon enough my updates will happen with a bit more frequency and be of some substance as opposed to half-rushed posts that lack clarity and heart. At times I even forget to whom I’m talking to or is anyone even listening [hmm, okay write as a matter of fact..and read to be exact]. But nevermind that, at least I know I’m just rambling to myself. like I always do hehehe.

I am actually quite exhausted lately, for I have little time to myself anymore and when I do have time to myself, I usually do not spend it productively. I need to start making checklists for myself, because that method always used to work for me..somehow somewhat someway, at least *deep breath* In His infinite mercy,He helps me find the way.

but right now I must leave..

since my weekend is almost and unfortunately, coming to a close and normal life will resume tomorrow. Time is ever-so-precious don’t you think? I kinda hate this. gees I’m beginning to-not-be-so fond of Mondays anymore, I don’t know why *yeiks!*

Eid Mubarak

“For every nation there is a celebration & this Eid is our celebration” [Bukhari]

Peace be Upon U..

hope it’s not too lill’ too late for me to wish all of you

Eidul Mubarak 1428H

may the choicest blessings of Allah fill your life

with peace, joy & prosperity!

hope everyone has blessed & beautiful days

and please do forgive all faults & shortcomings

Hugs,

[ocal.kaot.kauth.kauthar]

“30 days Shaytan-free Trial”

 So people are often making excuses for their willingness to change (for the better) and at times, I’m one of them too. Sometimes we blame the shaytan, sometimes our nafs (desires) and many other times, we tend to claim “it’s just to hard,man!”. I came across the “30 days Shaytan-free Trial” I thought of sharing it with everyone.. again! we insaan need constants reminders,yaar?

Firstly, we have the people who always blame the shaytan for everything. For these people, Alhamdulillah, we have the “30 days Shaytan-free Trial”. It’s now up to us what we want to do with this offer.

Next, are the people who blame their inner lust and desires that enslaves them, and eventually drive them to do things that they know they shouldn’t do. A practical step in dealing with this problem is to ‘avoid’ the sin instead of ‘fighting it’. If a person has a drinking problem, instead of going out to a party where there is i) alcohol and ii) people who like to drink, this person should take detour and avoid party all-together. Okay,so we don’t drink but I’m sure you get the point, having related to our every day lives right?

And then there are those people who cry that “it’s just too hard” when, in reality, they have made absolutely no effort to change. It’s said that a journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. Hmm, how many steps have we taken to earn paradise?

We could than conclude that people often blame everything but their own willingness to change. May Allah protect us and have mercy on us all.

If one is willing to change, there is no better time,as Ramadhan is a month of change; gates of Paradise are wide-open, gates of Hell are locked, shayateen are chained-up, halaal becomes haraam (eating during the day), sunnah is (rewarded) fardh, fardh is multiplied manifold, the seriousness of sinning is greater, peoples’ greed, envy and gossips becomes generosity, love and remembrance of the Exalted and Majestic.

did you realize that Allah has changes so much for us so that we can turn to Him, but how much of an effort will we make?

. . . .h r m m . . .

Okay, lets think of Ramadhan as a train that will take you from this pathetic, lowly station to the next. And the following year, the same train will take you from that station to the next. But if you miss the train this year, you will always be one station behind. So it’s somehow imperative that we take some time to gather our belongings and prepare for the train that’s arriving at our station very soon, lest it passes us by.

So let’s plan out our resolutions and our goals deliberately for this ride. Often times we plan our routines for Ramadhan but find out we miss our target at the end of Ramadhan. If we plan to recite 1 juz of quran a day or cut the hours of watching tv during Ramadhan, don’t hold off until Ramadhan but start today. Put ourselves in a low gear during Rajab and Syaban so that it’s easier to switch to a high gear and speed up during Ramadhan inshAllah.

Let’s begin our ibadah festival now!! Lets enjoy the ride, and see you at the next station Insha Allah kheir.

and so im wishing everybody RAMADHAN MUBARAK!! with cheer in the air..mirth in your voice..colour in your vision…wisdom in your mind…peace in your heart..song in your soul…Allah bless you always people! .hugs.kisses.

where oh where does the time go

oh where oh where could it be? Yes, that was sung to that pesky children’s song that won’t leave my head. Not good when you are writing a book review. .

going through life’s stresses. inshaAllah just shoved back my heart up in my sleeve.